all those nights with the phone warming the side of my face like the sun. you made jokes and sure, i may have even laughed a little but mostly you were not funny. mostly you were beautiful. mostly you were unremarkable, even your mediocrity was unremarkable. when friends would ask ‘what do you like about him?” i would think of you holding a bouquet against the denim of your shirt. i mean, you had my face as your screensaver for gods sake, do you know what that does for the self-esteem of girl with an apparition for a father?
hey, do you remember the quiet between us in all those restaurants? all the other couples engrossed in deep conversation and us, as quiet as a closed mouth.
that one afternoon when i asked ‘why do you love me?’ and you replied as quick as a coin toss ‘because you’re mad, because you’re crazy’ and i said ‘why else?’ and you said ‘that mouth, i love that mouth’ and i collapsed into myself like a sheet right out of the dryer.
you clean, beautiful, unremarkable boy, raised by a pleasant mother, was i just a riot you loved to watch up close? there were times i picked arguments just so that we could have something to talk about.
last week, i walked through the part of the city i loved when i still loved you, our old haunts. you know, even the ghosts have moved on.
I’m lonely so I do lonely things Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same. You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood. I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for a…
the thing about not growing up being able to trade on beauty is that it forced me to fortify myself with other attractive qualities. i learned early to be smart, to be kind, to be funny, to make people feel good around me. i learned to be an attractive and magnetic person through…
“It’s amazing that in 1969 we as a society managed to put a man on the moon and yet we still can’t get a wheelchair user from one railway station to another nearly 50 years later. You have to come to the conclusion that it is a lack of will to create a more accessible world, not lack of technology or design skills.”—
Tony Heaton, English sculptor and wheelchair user. (via indizombie)
"You have to come to the conclusion that it is a lack of will to create a more accessible world"
sorry if this is creepy but i see you around all the time at ASA meetings and stuff and i was wondering what the dark lipstick you wear is called? it's beautiful!
haha not creepy at all i always ask people what lipstick they have on. but i think this message might be old cuz i havent really been wearing lipstick lately but the one i usually wear is dark side from mac. if not that then i also rock diva, which is also by mac. hope that helps! :)